trauma makes experience to mature

 "I've come to tell you that you've grown up now. I know, but please don't kill the child within you, okay? It's alright, because you know that once you kill the child within and become overly mature, you'll get stuck in trying to appear mature and composed instead of being your true self. Learn to adjust, but not always, not now, not today. After a few years, you'll experience the pressure to appear mature and composed every time, and it will become a habit, just like how gamblers get addicted to gambling. I started living with others (uncle/aunt) from the age of 3-5. Everyone has experienced bad behavior from others in some way, especially during childhood when children don't know much about right and wrong. This includes good touch and bad touch. Some people have even gone through violence, torture, harassment, and molestation. And I'm one of them.i faced torture to violence like hitting on the walls , I was not only beaten, but my hands were also burnt and pricked with needles because I tried to write a letter with those hands! so  Believe me, I faced it alone and managed to come out of it. You are stronger than you think. I used to be a person who wouldn't speak, but now I speak loudly. I can speak through my silence too. I won't tell you how I was treated in my childhood! Despite having a family, I was treated worse than an orphan. Back then, I didn't understand much; all I knew was that the day I'd leave, I'd never come back, nor would I remember those days or those people, or even ask about their well-being! But honestly, it doesn't work that way; initially, I was like a stone. Now, I cry at every little thing. Now, someone else's anger is vented out on my loved ones. Or I suppress my anger. As we grow older, our emotions change. Sometimes, I feel like I've become my own worst enemy. The way others behave has hurt me so deeply that a spark within me wants to transform me into someone as flawed as the world around me. But my heart tells me that the world isn't entirely wicked. I don't want to live this way! I'm writing the truth today, speaking the truth. Why shouldn't I speak up? Why should I remain silent? Why should I be wrong to myself? I still have a life to live!"

Just like our perspective changes! We humans have a unique quality—we give back a little of what we receive, but the hatred we receive gets buried within us! Of course, we search for the things we lacked in our childhood when we grow up, but strangely, we fulfill that search for someone else. I crave love, or rather, I'm greedy for it because I didn't get it in my childhood. Yet, I know how to give love, and I treat people the way I want to be treated! So always choose to be kind everywhere.✨️ 

Advice: If you're under 20, read and listen more, and try to speak less, because at this age, we're more 'aggressive' during our teenage years. It's better to think and learn now rather than regret later. And most unique quality convert ur reaction into creations and see the magic✨️🦋and always listen to ur inner self cqz ur guts feeling never lie honey:)💓

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